someone help me pls (the 71st post)
i think im going crazy. xrctv why is wa1 so close to the start of the sch year its oni feb and im sick of sch alr. i just wanna go somewhere where theres no one and sit there by myself for one whole day. (w food and water obv) (i dont want to die of starvation) (if i die i wld want to die of smthing more exciting but a quick death w not too many ppl) enough of me dying.
that day (actly yesterday night) i realised i hv vivia's and roshini's thermometers for some reason? but i dont hv the bag of thermometers? which is so weird. i dug my bag and senna was like "what if she found a ded body" that got me hyped up for no reason so i dug my bag again but i didnt find a ded body, oni my math hw. i was pretty disappointed.
im going to stop my topic abt ded ppl here bc its getting creepy and move on to reply (i think its vivias, yes its 99.99% confirmed to be vivias) post.
cough cough i dont rily walk behind ma'ams alot of times? i hang ard at the foyer until i realise theres no hope of my dad picking me up so i buy myself like 3 milos frm the vending machine and slowly drag myself out of sch. yeh my mum does scold me for lot of things? but its not like shes being strict its just cause shes concerned? n i dont really mind? i think ill b worried sick if one day i left sch 10 mins late n my mum doesnt call me to ask where i am. i alr get worried sick when she doesnt pick up my calls. oso stop asking me why i change into sch u aft parade. bc my mum thinks i look like a mess in it (which honestly i do cause i look a mess in everything) and it doesnt take much time to change out.
aNOther thing. can yall dont complain when i lose my stuff n panic? if i rily lost my skirt that day n went home without it i wld hv been kicked of the face of this earth. which wld be terrible cause not oni wld i die but i wld die homeless and familyless which is smthing i do not want to ever happen. (altho death by being kicked into space is vv interessant).
and the thing abt going home w other ppl is that i dont rily talk? so most of the time its like im non-existent n it makes it awkward for other ppl? cause they cant pretend im not there? but i dont talk to them much so i rather just go home alone. that time i actly left sch w them and i was just like: "yeh im here but they dont seem to know that and i hv no idea what they r talking abt so i think ill just jaywalk and escape frm them" and then naika is always the one saying "wheres meg?" and it generally makes me feel bad cause like they hv to pretend to rmb im ard even if im not even talking to them. so i just go home alone makes things so much easier.
oso most ppl go the the bus stopp where they dont cross the road but i hv to cross the road so i end up alone anyways... i hv my music anyways hehe~ BUT NOW MY DAD PICKS ME UP BC OF THE COVID-19 AND IM JUST SO HAPPY HAHA THE ONI THING I LIKE ABT THIS COVID-19
o0f this weird jump in topic but ive been randomly crying a lot lately? i cant cry on command but i cry alot but lately ive been crying so much im perplexed by it. i literally read vivias post and cried. the first crying episode i had this year was when bigbang's Coachella news came out and i cried? but luckily i was at home. no harm done :/ but then it started to get more and more frequent? and everytime there wld b real tears and stuff and in PUBLIC my gosh my sensible reputation just went down the drain. sigh at least i dont cry during Parade. it wld b so awkward if i suddenly broke down in front of ma'ams. another time i was on the train watching kdrama and then the death scene came and i broke down in tears. it was so embarrassing but luckily i was wearing a mask so i quikly wipe my tears away and hid my face with the mask. now i dont dare to watch kdrama in public alr. which is sad cause i rily like the drama :(
im going to stop here its like im exposing myself too much
hehe~
gdbye ppl
that day (actly yesterday night) i realised i hv vivia's and roshini's thermometers for some reason? but i dont hv the bag of thermometers? which is so weird. i dug my bag and senna was like "what if she found a ded body" that got me hyped up for no reason so i dug my bag again but i didnt find a ded body, oni my math hw. i was pretty disappointed.
im going to stop my topic abt ded ppl here bc its getting creepy and move on to reply (i think its vivias, yes its 99.99% confirmed to be vivias) post.
cough cough i dont rily walk behind ma'ams alot of times? i hang ard at the foyer until i realise theres no hope of my dad picking me up so i buy myself like 3 milos frm the vending machine and slowly drag myself out of sch. yeh my mum does scold me for lot of things? but its not like shes being strict its just cause shes concerned? n i dont really mind? i think ill b worried sick if one day i left sch 10 mins late n my mum doesnt call me to ask where i am. i alr get worried sick when she doesnt pick up my calls. oso stop asking me why i change into sch u aft parade. bc my mum thinks i look like a mess in it (which honestly i do cause i look a mess in everything) and it doesnt take much time to change out.
aNOther thing. can yall dont complain when i lose my stuff n panic? if i rily lost my skirt that day n went home without it i wld hv been kicked of the face of this earth. which wld be terrible cause not oni wld i die but i wld die homeless and familyless which is smthing i do not want to ever happen. (altho death by being kicked into space is vv interessant).
and the thing abt going home w other ppl is that i dont rily talk? so most of the time its like im non-existent n it makes it awkward for other ppl? cause they cant pretend im not there? but i dont talk to them much so i rather just go home alone. that time i actly left sch w them and i was just like: "yeh im here but they dont seem to know that and i hv no idea what they r talking abt so i think ill just jaywalk and escape frm them" and then naika is always the one saying "wheres meg?" and it generally makes me feel bad cause like they hv to pretend to rmb im ard even if im not even talking to them. so i just go home alone makes things so much easier.
oso most ppl go the the bus stopp where they dont cross the road but i hv to cross the road so i end up alone anyways... i hv my music anyways hehe~ BUT NOW MY DAD PICKS ME UP BC OF THE COVID-19 AND IM JUST SO HAPPY HAHA THE ONI THING I LIKE ABT THIS COVID-19
o0f this weird jump in topic but ive been randomly crying a lot lately? i cant cry on command but i cry alot but lately ive been crying so much im perplexed by it. i literally read vivias post and cried. the first crying episode i had this year was when bigbang's Coachella news came out and i cried? but luckily i was at home. no harm done :/ but then it started to get more and more frequent? and everytime there wld b real tears and stuff and in PUBLIC my gosh my sensible reputation just went down the drain. sigh at least i dont cry during Parade. it wld b so awkward if i suddenly broke down in front of ma'ams. another time i was on the train watching kdrama and then the death scene came and i broke down in tears. it was so embarrassing but luckily i was wearing a mask so i quikly wipe my tears away and hid my face with the mask. now i dont dare to watch kdrama in public alr. which is sad cause i rily like the drama :(
im going to stop here its like im exposing myself too much
hehe~
gdbye ppl
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