this was supposed to not be cringey...

 hmmm, no one aside from vivia (on birthdays) updates here anymore, I'm assuming because everyone has exams and I'm that person who's too lazy to study for anything. Anyways today is vedha's birthday, so happy bdayyy. (The last I checked, vivia's post only has 1 view, which belongs to me). 

The point of this post is to complain about how fanfics are written in Chinese, which I cannot understand and therefore have no way of finding out what happens, I'm sorry cvips but this is the oNe time I'll complain about y'all. I hate Chinese so much... if I pass I can just drop it in JC, right?

There's third lang exam tomorrow, I'm not prepared, def gonna fail, and who really cares at this point. The only saving grace is that I memorised my oral stuff already. I haven't studied much at all, I spent 2 days fussing over that 1.5 pages of disgustingly cringey fiction... I should just delete it. Why I even thought of writing it is beyond me. 

Someone told me I should write a fanfic, but my brain keeps going back to [tw] topics so... nope... I don't wanna see anyone d-wording, even if it's imaginary. It's sad though,,, the trsr community on ao3 is so small... most of the tags don't even have works under them 😭We need more banana milk. (I bet no one will ever understand this...). Talking about [tw] topics, today was very interesting because guess what [tw//] I'm sorry but whatever was written here has been deleted for your safety 

I got a shock this morning cause I accidentally clicked into a thread of frog pics... is there a TW for that because I feel like there should be, I could have gotten a heart attack. But with all the weird phobias in the world, anything could require a tw if everyone demanded it be placed so uhm... I'll probably continue getting occasional heart attacks, luckily, I can pretty much navigate my phone with my eyes closed now.

Anyways today my friend and I were simping over guys that are impossible to get, hers being 2d and technically imaginary, and mine being in Korea, preparing for their next comeback or 18 years older than me. Talking about guys in Korea, the trial is in 2 days and I'm a nervous wreck, I don't know what will happen and it scares me so much... Anyways, my friend said that I technically have a chance, but if dispatch still exists by the time I'm old enough to fly to Korea by myself, even a guy one year older than me is out of reach. But that's enough of romance that will never happen... I should really go and study for exam tomorrow... but at the same time, idk what to study... maybe I'll attempt a fanfic after all... I've got nothing better to do, except maybe clearing my Chinese homework.