drowning in a pool of tears

wow 3 weeks ago me was so weird honestly it's so weird thinking about it tho because i cant rmb what i did that day but i existed that day???? it's like i completely forget i am Alive at times but i probably am alive??? time passes by so fast woooooooosh i'm like fifteen already >:( and apparently, we're taking over soon haha :" 

today's like saturday and i told myself i would be done w hw yesterday (cos gd friday) but then i went out and didnt do anything but it's saturday alrdy and i am still not done w my hw and i havent started on any revision so basically im panicking a lot kahsdkjhsadak and i think im gg out later idk but its only 5 and i have spent 6 hours on my phone so i am also panicking a lot abt that hhhh and also the WA2 timetable come out and we have english WA in like 10 days?? hello?? are you making me write an essay even though i barely learnt anything these past three months??????? omg it's four months we have like half a year left?????????? AHSDJASHDA OMG WHY IS TIME PASSING BY SO FAST

i am in absolute panic.

woah i really should treasure time better </3 

btw, please tell me ur plants are still alive,,, 

oh did you know today is 4/3/21 which is like 4321 and it's like a countdown hehe >.< countdown to my fall from grace?? countdown to the days we have left on earth?? we'll never know !!

do you ever wonder if you will ever make such a huge mistake that you end up becoming an outcast in school....? like the kind in high sch dramas where everyone just starts bullying you and stuff because of something you did that others didnt like.....? that'd be very scary 

anyway, on wed, we had the MBTI personality type quiz thing/lesson, and ! :) idk what u call it but the MBTI thing i got was the same as what i got when i did the quiz so that's very cool :> i share the same type as this youtuber i quite like a lot so i think that's also very cool AND u know i am an eXtROvErt which imo is extremely odd, considering my teNdenCieS but ig in a sense it also makes sense but at the same time not really 

oh yes, like uh three weeks or smth update, but i am still friends w that girl i talked abt in my previous post which is really cool :D her birthday is like this month LMAOJSOJAJOSJ im in such pain i hate aprils its so H O T like pls give me back dec i loved the weather ;;

good luck for myes and WA2s people :> (i still can't get over how physics is one day before math like ????????? i struggle w both sm are u gg make me fail math) SAYONARA I STILL TAKE JAPANESE YAY

EDIT: HUAHDHKASHKDAHKJSDHKA I WENT TO READ SOME POST I MADE FOR MEGS BIRTHDAY AND I CAM EHRE TO SAY I STOPPED READING READER X SOMEONE STORIES OK THEY GOT CRINGE AFTER A WHILE I RLLY NEED TO CLEAR UP THIS MISUNDERSTANDINGS I WAS VERY BORED OK PLEASE I HAVE CHNAGED PLEASE I AM NOT LIKE THAT AAAAAAAAAAA

edit: that phase where i put emojis in nearly all my sentences was so bad <33 thankfully i have stopped yeahhhhh i still wont get why we have so many readers hello who r u hooman being