high heels are funky and hard to walk in

i keep blogging but thats bc im in class and bored (im paying lots of attention dw it's the vietnam war) anyways senna's post has made me think about the rubbish i did as a kid (and still now) so here goes <3 my first major fandom was KPOP bc OBVIOUSLY but uwu vip hearteu~~ (cringe) i still love them and they're coming back soon (yay!) but i dont have the energy to keep up with them as much as i used to . when i started stanning i didn't even have a phone yet so it was very much the non-toxic kpop experience <33 hehehehe . i have *1* lightstick and it's theirs (bc i went to a concert when i was 9 or 10, best experience ever) and a bunch of fake pcs + fake merch which i will treasure forever bc thank you for everything . 

i switched (bg) ults like mid 2020 when the virus first blew up and i haven't moved on since , but i'm not that active anymore lol . i have like a random 1.6k acc lying around that i rarely tweet on . but at one point in time i was an admin on one of those bars (i cant rmb what everyone else calls them the chinese is taking over my brain) & also had my own small one . there was a mini virtual 3-day camp which was rly fun planning & running , i kind of want to do something similiar again hehehehehee . 

that being said i am far more active with ggs now bc <3 pixy <3 but like winxytopia (affectionate) is always the same ppl and one of them in particular happens to TEACH at a SINGAPORE SECONDARY SCHOOL so you see . im not particularly enthusiastic about that . 

anyways moving on from kpop , im very much still in my mxtx/2ha/jwqs/etc. phase . currently reading svsss (literally these ppl cannot go a day without angst) but im putting that on hold for myes , while i TRY and improve my chinese by doing the unfinished translations of twn by myself bc why not . (book is 200++ chapters long , THE TRANSLATIONS ARE ONLY UP TO CH 43 I THINK) but i found the raws posted very nicely (lies) on a weird but seemingly secure site so i'll just trust my instincts . i can't afford merch and neither am i artistic so i'll stick to writing hehehehhehe . about writing . you will NEVER hear about the rubbish i've written when i was younger ESPECIALLY NOT the wattpad ones (but i still have my old account bc bookmarks) . some of them did too well ... thank goodness none of them are traceable (i hope) i still write but i haven't put out anything big since 2 years ago and i wanna write .... original fiction now which is a pain sometimes haha . idk we'll see <3

genshin brainrot i won't elaborate xingqiu ilysm

crk <3 i will play until i get sea fairy and then i'll never shut up

honkai (abandoned) maybe i'll return during the december hols when i finally decide to give up on genshin hehehehee it's quite fun to talk abt genshin with my classmates lol #forcedfriends

OKAY HOW ABOUT I TALK ABOUT QIAOSHU “一触即发，用声音定义无限可能！” AAAAAA laser heheheehee i dont even know what im doing like the music is average but QIAOSHU!! qiaoshu ^__^ his colour is pink which omg adorable i love him sm he's MINE “经常拾头数星星 就不会低头数糖果.” on another off tangent yuyang reminds me of xueyang like he's the modern personification of him WHICH LITERALLY MAKES NO SENSE bc his voice actor was LAN SIZHUI IN THE DONGHUA ??? and qiaoshu's was nan feng which is interesting (fengxin <3) 

i love games okay i have never played one bc of the very clear absence of an xbox or playstation on my house & also do you really think my parents will pay sixty dollars for me to download it off steam . but i like going back and watching people talk about world records and strats for rly old games (there was this one boxing thing which the pixels pain my eyes to look at but the opponents are absolutely adorable) it's so cool to hear ppl discussing about TAS's and limits that are humanly impossible to hit and then one dude comes along and beats the TAS by 2 whole seconds on live , hehe. im an indie game fan without the actual playing ,,, i just enjoy watching devs and players talking abt those stuff . also my brother is very into mario rn and it's fun to talk to him about it ^__^ game dev is probably my want to do "chosen" career path and its sad i'll never get to see it turn to reality . 

on the topic of techy stuff dropping everything to learn css/html/javascript rn sounds really appealing . i have a bit of html understanding bc i used to play around with developer tools on google so i could mess with people (and legally  download things) but javascript and css is very new to me so hehehheheee . but my ocpp is more of an end-goal thing so i think i'll be able to mange bc i dont rly *have* to prove my learning , i just need to submit a qiaoshu shrine . ultimately i wanna be able to accomplish something like that interactive cafe which is really really cool but it will take me a very very long time to not only learn that much but also ... art . which i hate btw like i doodle a lot but doing art ?????? ugh never make me draw again . (even pixel art is such a pain man)

okay lesson is almost over byebye